Wednesday, 23 June 2010

My texture's a sidewalk and notre-dame's playing

What the actual fuck.

16 months is far too long
to only just realise you hate someone
but it's far too short a time
to realise that they hate you back
you say i dont think enough about my sexual conquests
so why dont you make me spew those bars of soap
and leave me washed out on the floor with our tortoise
my thoughts have never been so unclean before
and you just wont take no for an answer
but who even said i was offering it
ever so apologetic that i cant hear your whiney tones anymore
its being drowned out by the applause
of an era of cataclysmic lovers that are just like me
every morning you wake me up not by kissing me goodbye
but by backing up into the trash cans
and littering your endlessly reliable self help books
into the empty lay by i ended it in the male bathroom
of your favourite squalid chinese buffet
on a sick encrusted toilet seat
i broke your heart into a hundred pieces
and smashed them with the balls of my feet
into the yellowing floor tiles
until they turned an odd shade of grey
your tears staining them back to white
stop wasting them on me i dont mean anything
to anyone and im pleased
the first few days were heaven sent
and i couldnt digest what ive been missing
picking up on the girls that everyone else leaves derelict
they couldnt look anymore flawless to me
they make up for all my dance hall tragedies
and they look even better lying opposite my boney frame
under your favourite well worn bed sheets
wearing nothing but your favourite tshirt
and nibbling away at my modesty
ever so apologetic that i cant hear your whiney tones anymore
its being drowned out by the applause
of an era of cataclysmic lovers that are just like me.
BUT THE NOVELTY WORE OFF
when i realised that my jeans spent more time
on the garish carpet than around my girly hips
and the white noise bursting out of my ears
was actually your voice retorting
all the things i said to fracture you right back at me
its obvious that youre over me and im so beneath you
ever so apologetic that i cant hear your whiney tones anymore
its being drowned out by the applause
of an era of cataclysmic lovers that are just like me
curled up and asleep on your doorstep
feeling quite SHIT FACED(ever so apologetic)
your doorbell ring reverberates in my chest cavity
and my ring finger aches from the force
oh my god why wont you let me in
ive already pissed all over your fresh roses(ever so apologetic)
that i bought for you for 11.50
from the off licence around the corner
but it's the thought that counts
but it's the thought that counts
oh my god why wont you let me in(ever so apologetic)
I FUCKING LOVE YOU so why dont you want me
im ever so apologetic x4

I want day to day life to finish already, I'd much prefer to live night to night; far more exhilarating. Far more aesthetically pleasing. God I hate that phrase, I use it so often it feels like vomit in my mouth (I use that word too often as well, it feels like.. you get the idea), but it works, so I do it. That's how everything happens, it works well for what we're trying to do so we do it.

I guess that would be a good approach to making music; no limitations in terms of style or how cool an instrument is perceived to be, just do it because it fucking sounds good and it makes you feel good when you do it. That being said, I don't want any clashing going on; I might not be writing any music but I'm default diplomat here.

It's all good; something will happen. Sometime soon. We have a kit. We have somewhere to start.

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